I binned

I did it again.  I looked at dollies on eBay.  Someone put a bunch of Zwergnase on, starting at $9, I bid on one, but only a little bit and I know I will be outbid.  I just had to.

So to console myself, knowing I will most definitely lose, I held Audrey and Hammie and smiled at Susan and decided it would be far better to look at practical things.  I found some yummy foods for Audrey and Hammie:

 

 

These should be fairly good in scale for them at 4-5 cm each.   I loved the rice, as that is exactly what Nisse's eat for Christmas.  Hope they arrive before I get there!

I also completed one more lacy sweater, this one I am sending to Tracy for trade in the wonderful cast iron cauldron that she sent me for Aloe Vera.

Sighing

Yesterday we were able to go to an Antique Mall, the first time we have been able to shop in anything other than a truck stop or Walmart in the 7 months that we have been on the road.  I was so thrilled and it was definitely a wonderful experience.  I held my breath and crossed my fingers that some little doll would call my name while there.  I have wanted an Antique Dolly for so ling.  There were many dolls to look at and hold, more than I usually see in these kind of places, but sadly, none called me.  I took lots of photo's here.  

In my disappointment, I then searched eBay for hours determined to find a little treasure.  I found none.  I know that before we settle down to our new home, new dolls will be out of the question.  So I am planning on buying a couple more in the next few years.  I try to think of which dolls it ought to be.  Since I have been working out my companions connections and past history, I realize that right now, while not everyone is in perfect scale to each other, they are fine and wonderful just as they are, ranging from 10 to 22 inches and in a petite way, not in a Gotz way.  They can I just couldn't find any new fab doll out there on the market except Lusion, but I cannot ever even contemplate her, not at $1300.  But, my, she is so dreamy and lovely!  Very large, but wow.  I remind myself that I don't care for Dollmore resin.  Yes, a perfect reason to just let her go.

I guess I still wander into the one and only territory I now try so hard to forget.  Seeing Lusion makes me think she would be a perfect one and only companion.  Then I stop myself and ask whom do I really love?   Who brings me the joy?  Audrey and Hammie do.  So very much so that I cannot even imagine life without them.  So why do this to myself? 

See how just contemplating a doll discovery in an Antique Mall can wreck havoc on the dolly-emotions?  Sheesh.

Iluminating

Audrey:  I'm hungry!  Can we eat now?

Hammie:  I don't want corn!  I want french fries!

Olwen:  I guess we can eat now, lets see if we can put it in the oven.

Hammie:  I am NOT eating it!

Olwen:  Oh, Hammie, quit fussing.  Corn is fine, maybe I can find something to go with it.

Audrey: the Indians like corn.

Audrey:  I'm telling! You can't take the corn!

Hammie:  Give it!

Audrey:  NO!

Audrey: (pushing Hammie back) You have to eat it.

Hammie: I want french fries!

Audrey:  You're not a good Indian!

Hammie:  I am too!

Audrey:  LOOK! An Angel!

Olwen: (to herself)  I knew it.  And Nanny's not even here to explain it!

A Memory

 

Audrey:  Hi Olwen!  What's a Christmas tree?  And how come we have one?

Olwen: It's a good thing, I just can't say just yet.  You two ask a lot of questions!

Hammie:  I like Christmas trees.  They are sparkle-ly.

 

Audrey:  (in a sing song tone) I know what you are thinking!  You're thinking we don't know who we are!

Olwen:  Oh oh, I am in trouble!  (tries to think blank thoughts).  So who are you then?

Audrey:  we are Audrey and Hammie!!!!!!  Silly.

Olwen:  Yes, that's true!

 

Audrey:  We are children.  Some day we will be grown ups and wear hats!

Olwen:  Yes, I suppose that is true too.

Hammie:  Peter Pan didn't grow up!  I don't want to grow up.

Audrey:  Me neither.

Olwen:  I do.  I want to wear earrings and lipstick!

Hammie:  Yucky.  I'm not wearing lipstick!

 

Audrey:  Look!  The Christmas tree is so pretty!  It is sparkling!

Hammie:  ooooooohhhhhh

Olwen:  It's very little, sometimes they are even bigger!

 

Audrey:  (in a dreamy voice) I kinda remember a Christmas tree, a long time ago.  It touched the ceiling.  It was silvery and had candles on it.........I remember........I  was wearing a circlet.......I was a princess.......

Confusing Explanations

 

Olwen liked to write in her dairy.  At her tender age of 12, she was sure she knew everything there was to know about the world and life in general.  Often she started what she thought was deep and meaningful sentences and lost her train of thought and drew pictures instead.

 

Hammie:  Olwen, what doing?  I have a question.

Olwen: I am writing serious things.  I can answer your question.  I can answer any question!

 

Hammie:  What's a Christmas tree and how come we don't know know anything about Christmas and are we going to be Christmas?

Olwen:  Uhm, well.  I think I will have to think a minute.

Hammie:  Why?

 

Olwen:  Well, it's kinda complicated.  See, Christmas is our thing we do, but we haven't been instructed yet and well, it's long story.

Hammie:  Does it hurt?

Susan:  Oh no!  It's the most wonderful time of the year!  There's lots to love about Christmas!  It's just that I am not suppose to say anything until Nanny can tell you about something you need to know.  Something even I don't know all about.  Oh, it's all so confusing.

 

Hammie:  (sighing) I like the tree looking so pretty.  I like the pretty star on top.  It looks magical.  Is there more to a Christmas?  Do trees just get decorated?

Olwen: Yes there is more.  Lots more.  It is a happy time, and I just don't know how to make it happy because we are in a truck and not able to do what we are suppose to do.  I am going to write Nanny a letter and see what she has to say about it.

Hammie:  Ask Nanny to send cookies!

A New Idea Developes

Yesterday I had a wonderful idea hit me like a brick.  Ouch. lol

Way back in summer, I had planned on doing a Christmas Calendar for December, but my idea couldn't be worked out because I lacked several supplies, forgetting to get them on the last home time.  So as I sketched out other ideas, I came across an idea that just kept growing and interconnecting to the point that I suddenly had every one of my companions inter-connected and the many photo-stories I did in the past now were a part of my companion's history!

I lost the entire blog I had done of Belsant Tower, the castle tower I built.  I have been so sad about that.  I still have many of the old pictures I used, so that I could at least re-create an overview of the adventures of Ismay and Silas.  As I thought it out, I realized how perfect it would be to connect my Evie's life to their history, making Ismay and Sila her parents!  Evie started out as Lili Marlene (each name carried a very different look) and I could have her be Susan's mother.  I developed several "houses" of family and one kingdom.   I have so many photo's of Evie in different stages, they will make perfect "historical" family photo's".  Evie has always wanted to be free of the persona's I had given her, and now she is.  Evie is now completely free to be herself.

I am working this family dynasty out on another website, one that I can use a page per companion to record their history and their interconnections.  Everyone of my companions are now a part of each other's lives.  Since they are all fairies, elves and nisser, they can continue to be in many generations as they live for hundreds of years. My goal is to have it all done by Christmas Day, so that it will be the "book" that Nanny reveals to the family.  I am so excited about this project, making it all a wonderful and rich history of my companion's lives.

And best of all, it allows for the possibility to add one more companion in the next few years (if not a couple) and I already have lots of ideas on how to manage the future rebuilding of the homes of my homeless companions!

Christmas Symbols

 

Audrey:  What are you looking at Hammie?

Hammie:  I dunno.  I never saw it before!

 

 Hammie:  See!  it's way up there!  It is scary!

Audrey:  Oh my!  What could it be?  Lets go see.

 

Hammie:  I'll help you Audrey.

 

Hammie:  What if it eats us?

Audrey:  It hasn't eated Hula Hanna.

Hammie:  It's a tree monster!

Audrey:  Hula Hanna...does the tree bite?

Hula Hanna: (laughing) Lord, haven't you see a Christmas tree before?

 

Audrey:  It's not scary, it's a Christmas tree!

Hammie:  What's that?

Audrey:  I dunno.  Lets go ask Olwen!